For all of you reading this, it's important to know that we want this to be about our family's story, Liam's story more importantly. However, before we became 3 , Dave & I were dealt a fairly big blow as newlyweds, something I think is important to share. About 2 months after our wedding, I woke up one day with tingly toes. Tingly toes turned into numb feet, which eventually started affecting other parts of my body. Life continued on as normal for a few weeks, but I couldn't shake the notion that something just wasn't right. Whenever I had a chance I would GOOGLE every symptom, and pour over article after article of what these symptoms could actually be....let's just say I wasn't liking what I was discovering. There was a VERY REAL possibility that what these symptoms were, were signs of Multiple Sclerosis !!! Well, as anyone out there who has faced an illness or a disease, we've all said to ourselves "that can't possibly happen to ME...that happens to OTHER people". Unfortunately, it was happening to me, and I didn't even know it yet !!! I tried to busy myself with work, but the numbness, the fatigue, were a constant reminder that something was going on, and it was time to see my doctor. Growing up, I was always a pretty healthy kid, and my doctor knew that, and she was very unwilling to accept the fact that there was a possibilty that I could be facing something so serious. She said I was fine, and sent me off with a few sample packages of different medications to try to curb the numbness. Needless to say none of those worked, and before long I was back in her office begging for her to do something more. Fast forward a few months ( what felt like years to me ), and I was finally offered a date for an MRI. For anyone that is familiar with MS, it can be a very lengthy disease to diagnose....patience is not my greatest virtue...lol !!! Waiting for the results of the MRI was like torture...no one wants to be told they have an incurable disease, but the thought of not knowing what is wrong with you isn't comforting either. In early 2010, I was UNOFFICIALLY diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis , and it was by far the worst day of my life. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore, but as I said earlier, the thought of not knowing was just as terrifying. So, now what....to have a baby or not ? We were told that becoming pregnant was still very much an option, in fact it could actually help alleviate some of the symptoms, and since I was not on any medications at this point we were told the next little while would be a good time to try. Marriage, Multiple Sclerosis and babies....WOW !
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